Working in an office surrounded by cookies sucks

I am in my office right now... surrounded by cookies- not just cookies, but delightful, decadent, little devil goodies. I must leave soon. Not kiddin'. Kim- I'm workin from home or somewhere else this afternoon.

I am being mindful of what I'm eating with Weight Watchers. I almost typed "back on Weight Watchers".... but that felt defeating. See how that other way sounds better? I had an egg and one egg white scrambled for breakfast. I do better when I start the day with protein. I had a cup of coffee with flavored creamer- everybody needs some flavor! And I am just beginning to feel hungry. That's good and normal because it's a little after 12noon.

A little self-disclosure... for those of you who don't know Weight Watchers- you do a little survey on their website (if you're doing it on-line) and tell them your age, weight, height, work activity level, etc, and it will tell you how many points to eat for the day. After logging my weight the computer told me to retake the survey. Good news: I can add two more points to my daily eating. Bad news: I think that's because I'm in another weight bracket.

Moving on..... going forward from here!!

Why I have not been blogging:

I have love, love, loved the time spent with my family and friends this summer! I always get sad and pensive when summer comes to an end. I have been like this since childhood. I think it's because my soul loves the freedom, or at least the idea of freedom (still have to work... still have to get out of bed... still have to grocery shop), but it's summer!!! The sun is out (at least in August), the lightning bugs are flying (not as much this year), the corn is sweet, and time is spent sitting and talking with a glass of wine or beer in your hand, a citronella candle keeping the skeeters away, and the Steve Miller Band playing in the background.

Now, to get to the point of this blog..................

There has not been a lot of controlled eating or exercising this summer. Hmmmm...... I'm not sure what to say about that. I think about it. I know I've gained weight. I rationalize this by saying to myself, "you're on the pill now", and "work is really stressfull". I still love my body, but I need to start treating it better.

"You need to blog!" "Why haven't you been blogging?" I haven't been blogging because I feel ashamed of myself. I can't believe I have fallen off the wagon to this degree. Please, I don't need any words of wisdom, or encouragement, or any of that. I need to pull myself out of this funk and get on with it. It's my situation to deal with. I will work it out myself, knowing in my heart that you all support me and love me.... whether I'm a size 8 or not.