Step away from the.....everything!

We had some family stress/trauma yesterday. Our 14 year old doggie, Blake is not doing well. He is at the vets having some tests run, and then we shall see. It was stressful/sad for me because he is my first baby...not only is he my first baby, he's Michael's first baby, our first baby as a couple. We got him about 5 minutes after we kissed. I'm very persuasive. Michael was very sad, as was Hannah. Every time Hannah would cry, Michael would cry and vice versa. I broke down once or twice, but mostly I just gave him love. Jordan is Jordan. She's still little. It's so funny because she's such a drama queen, but when it comes to legitimate sad stuff, she's sorta fine with it.

So, why is this on the weight loss/fitness blog? Because I think I stated in one of the earlier posts that I am a stress eater. So, true confession time. Deep breath. (I'm learning how to breathe at the centering prayer sessions. Good thing.) Hannah and I went to lunch at the Olive Garden- trying to take her mind off Blake, and I needed to run some errands. I got soup and salad. I got the zupa (sausage potato soup) and should have gotten the minestrone. I ate two breadsticks, ate the croutons that come with the salad, and then.... promptly ordered the black tie mousse cake to 'share' with Hannah, knowing full well that she was full. side bar: The one thing I've done right with my kids is to teach them to 'listen to their body' when it comes to eating. Hannah is really good at that. What's that saying, 'do as I say, not as I do'.

So, we ran our errands and came home. I then proceeded to eat a piece of pizza and a bite of a breadstick that we had brought home with us. The rest of the day is a blur, but I know I ate a sloppy joe (on a multigrain 1 point roll) and some coconut gelato, oh, and I ate my weight in almonds.

Today I had a donut from D+D and a coffee with cream and sugar. I am having a Lean Cuisine for lunch. I am getting back on track. My point to all of this? I am going to forgive myself the 'food meltdown' and get back on the wagon.

P.S.- Full disclosures suck.

I changed my weight on WW.com- I couldn't stand it anymore!

So sue me.

Should I stay or should I go now?

So I weighed myself this morning and now I'm down almost 3 pounds since yesterday. Had the Amish Friendship Bread taken that long to digest? My question is: do I log in this new weight on WW.com, or do I leave it as a measly .2 lb weight loss for last week? I really want to change my weight on WW.com. I think it will help my mental health with regard to how hard I worked last week, and how careful I was (minus the AFB). Should I change it? P.S.- the hubbie was very tired last night so there was no photo shoot. I will try to get him to take my picture tonight.

.2 lbs lost (wtf)... or The devil's in the Amish f#$%'n friendship bread.

So I weighed in this morning and I'm down .2 pounds. This is a far cry from my anticipated 4 pounds. Photo will be coming tonight.

So, my friend gave me an amish friendship bread starter bag of dough (fermented goo actually), and thought my family would enjoy the 10 day process of growing the amish goodness. For more info on this phenomenon, check this out. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amish_Friendship_Bread She was right. We did enjoy the whole process. It was fun coming home deciding who would squoosh the bag, and who would pour in the sugar. It was so cute and fun and amishy thinking, 'we're waiting 10 days to bake a couple loaves of bread'. This doesn't happen nowadays. We open the box- add the egg, oil, and water, and you have an instant cake or something. We added chocolate chips to our friendship bread- yum. Having poured so much of myself into this bread, I simply had to try it on Saturday. I had quite a few flex points left, so I happily ate some. OMG...it was so good!!! Now keep in mind that I have not eaten anything resembling chocolate chips, cake, or crumbly cinammony goodness for over two weeks. How could I have forgotten that chocolate is a trigger food for me? I'm sure I ate more than my flex points worth of Amish f#$%'n Friendship Bread.

almost two complete weeks down...

... and I've stayed on track! yay!

Huh?

How come my week 1 picture looks skinnier than my week 2 picture? Hmmm....

1st Weigh-In

Well, I weighed in this morning and I'm down 3.7 pounds. I'm sooo happy!!! I'm not sure I mentioned it before, but I do the online version of Weight Watchers. I have done meetings in the past. My first leader spoiled me though. She was awesome. I haven't clicked with any of them since then. Anyway, WW has worked for me in the past, and I know I am successful with this program. Atkins, cabbage soup, South Beach... not for me. This is the only program that allows me to be me. So, when you log your weight online, you get a little WW-gram. It's either a smiley face 'cause you lost just enough weight, a scale if you gained, and a 'wanna be' smiley face if you lost too much (they want you to lose 2lbs a week, not much more than that). This 'wanna be' smiley face is happy for you, but looks frightened at the same time. It causes confusion for me. Are you happy for me or scolding me, little smiley man?