down 2 lbs this week

meal planning= setting yourself up for success

multiple trips to wegmans each week= multiple opportunities to buy ice cream

new challenge to be at goal weight by New Year's. think it's doable. need to plan our meals. considering trying emealz.com. Julie, at work, told me about it. it's worth a look if you hate planning meals, making the list, and shopping as much as I do. many people like to grocery shop. i do not get those people. i consider it a chore. note to self- convince one of those people to do my shopping. double their pleasure!

i am rebelling.

I can only attribute my lack of motivation to eat healthily to rebellion. Wow, it didn't seem this hard 4+ years ago! I go up... I go down. Going to the Y tonight to use the elliptical, or going for a walk, not sure yet.

I love to lose.

Down 4.5 lbs and went out of town to visit my aunt. It could have been a weekend-long free for all, but I maintained control. My aunt is an amazing cook!! Blueberry pancakes, french toast, three different kinds of pie..... the list goes on and on. I kept track of points in my head and on paper because they live in the boonies, so internet is slow. I am thankful for small triumphs!

Soy Joy... shouldn't I feel joyful right now?

Hi all!

So, I succombed to the mass marketing of this product called "Soy Joy". Yes, I paid $1 for a little log of supposed delight. I did check out their website prior to spending this small fortune, and read the ingredients. The one that shocked me was 'parmesan cheese'. Is this in lieu of some artificial substance that holds stuff together? I'm not sure, but my Peanut Chocolate Chip Soy Joy Bar contained it, and I ate it anyway.

To give you some perspective on the size of the bar, it was about the width of two Twix bars (actually probably a Twix bar and a half) and the same length as said Twix bar. Dinky. That was my breakfast. I can say that after drinking my coffee and my bar of joy, I am not hungry yet, so I guess that says something. Perhaps parmesan cheese is filling? Hmmm...

I am still waiting for the joy to kick in. Maybe they should call it "Dinky Bar of Soy That Will Stick to Your Ribs for Awhile and May Keep You From Binging at Lunch"? Nah, I'm pretty sure that's not very catchy.

This week is going well. The wagon is movin', and I'm on it. Ya hoo!!

Working in an office surrounded by cookies sucks

I am in my office right now... surrounded by cookies- not just cookies, but delightful, decadent, little devil goodies. I must leave soon. Not kiddin'. Kim- I'm workin from home or somewhere else this afternoon.

I am being mindful of what I'm eating with Weight Watchers. I almost typed "back on Weight Watchers".... but that felt defeating. See how that other way sounds better? I had an egg and one egg white scrambled for breakfast. I do better when I start the day with protein. I had a cup of coffee with flavored creamer- everybody needs some flavor! And I am just beginning to feel hungry. That's good and normal because it's a little after 12noon.

A little self-disclosure... for those of you who don't know Weight Watchers- you do a little survey on their website (if you're doing it on-line) and tell them your age, weight, height, work activity level, etc, and it will tell you how many points to eat for the day. After logging my weight the computer told me to retake the survey. Good news: I can add two more points to my daily eating. Bad news: I think that's because I'm in another weight bracket.

Moving on..... going forward from here!!

Why I have not been blogging:

I have love, love, loved the time spent with my family and friends this summer! I always get sad and pensive when summer comes to an end. I have been like this since childhood. I think it's because my soul loves the freedom, or at least the idea of freedom (still have to work... still have to get out of bed... still have to grocery shop), but it's summer!!! The sun is out (at least in August), the lightning bugs are flying (not as much this year), the corn is sweet, and time is spent sitting and talking with a glass of wine or beer in your hand, a citronella candle keeping the skeeters away, and the Steve Miller Band playing in the background.

Now, to get to the point of this blog..................

There has not been a lot of controlled eating or exercising this summer. Hmmmm...... I'm not sure what to say about that. I think about it. I know I've gained weight. I rationalize this by saying to myself, "you're on the pill now", and "work is really stressfull". I still love my body, but I need to start treating it better.

"You need to blog!" "Why haven't you been blogging?" I haven't been blogging because I feel ashamed of myself. I can't believe I have fallen off the wagon to this degree. Please, I don't need any words of wisdom, or encouragement, or any of that. I need to pull myself out of this funk and get on with it. It's my situation to deal with. I will work it out myself, knowing in my heart that you all support me and love me.... whether I'm a size 8 or not.

arms, fruit, eating, and cake decorating....

Does anyone have a good arm workout? I am thinking specifically of one using weights.

On a nutrition note: blueberries are on sale at Wegmans 2/$3- They're nature's m&m's! Also, cherries are awesome right now! I know they're not cheap, but they are so good, and much better than snacking on chips or candy.

We went to the Adirondacks last week, and I didn't eat well. I'm not sure we even had a vegetable all week. Do baked beans count as a vegetable? I am back on track this week.

Hannah and I are going to take a cake decorating class to be held each Thursday evening in July. I am really excited about it, I'm not sure about Hannah. I think I'm forcing her to do it with me, but she will come to see that it will be well worth the time she would have otherwise spent in front of the tv. Here's the snafoo.... I don't want to taste the frosting, for fear that it will throw me into a feeding frenzy.... and... I don't want to waste the points on lard and powdered sugar. I'm going to need some guinea pigs to test the goods I think. Any takers?